Somewhere in between

I think I am falling and there is nothing to hold on

I think I am dreaming far away from this world

I think I am screaming but no voice comes out of my mouth

I think I am crying trapped in my shell

I think I am loving but I know I don’t

I think I am bleeding, sweeping the blade over my skin

I think I am dying but my heart does not stop

I think I am running but you don’t want me to go

I think my pain is wrapped around me like mist,

Making me blind for the world and all what’s in

I wish it would be easier, could just stop to think

I wish it would be easier, would be the one directing my own life

But between all this thinking, believing, wishing and being

It’s just me, alone.