Alice

~Betrayal

There is hardly a worse crime than betrayal. It is the worst and at the same
time the stupidest thing one can do, because it always causes deaths.
But whoever betrays her wishes for death. I have seen what she does to the
traitors. I have heard them scream, cry, and beg for death. I saw them
tortured, receiving indescribable pain. Their limbs were cut off and they
were kept alive with blood transfusions just so they could see them suffer
longer. She lets them bleed and regret every second of their lives until
they wish they were dead, wish they were never born. Whoever betrays her can
only hope she is merciful and grants them a speedy death.
But the hope remains that she will not find out, that she doesn’t get you.
But she always does. I know. I’ve seen it often enough. Not regularly,
because there aren’t many who would even dare to defy her. Each one is one
too many. I saw them all scream, cringe, beg.
Hope dies last of all? Nothing but a naïve saying from people who have no
idea. Hope dies early. They notice early on that they will never receive
mercy. She will never stop until she grows weary of it all. Why should you
hope? Hope keeps you alive and life means pain as soon as she discovers you.
What dies last of all is the tormented body. Some are lucky; their mind
gives up long before the body starts dying. Fighters live longer, fighters
suffer longer. I was never a fighter. Now I have betrayed her. I am a
traitor and I know she is searching for me. I’m not afraid. I should be, but
I have no fear and that frightens me much more. I should fear her; cower in
front of her like the rest. I committed the worst treason to protect and
save Alice.  I hesitated to do it until I saw her locked in that white cage;
being driven insane by her and by our world…Her white skin, that dark hair
and the unbelievably tired eyes full of despair and fear. But behind those
eyes was so much more as one could see with the naked eye. Nothing could
reveal it but I saw it, so deep inside her, perhaps she never knew herself.
She is the Savior, the Redeemer. A fighter. She will save us and that is the
reason why I betrayed the queen. I had to betray her to save Alice, for she
desired her death. I could not, would not allow that.
I betrayed her. That is the reason I am running, running to survive. This is
my fight. This is why I became a fighter. For her.

Special thanks to Angie for the translation!!!